Before the sun rises

Lost in everything. Clouded with the definition of "perfect" that people always say. I don't know what I want. Right now, I'd like to study Parkinson's disease and stop reading everything else.

I wish I hadn't watched Grey's anatomy because I don't think I'll ever find a new favorite show. I wanna watch it all over again. But then again, I thought about CSI in exactly the same way. Now I hardly watch it.

Best things in life are those that come by surprises. I would say so. I'm a sucker for surprises after all.

I wonder what are exams for. Why am I studying the stuffs that I don't even like? What am I trying to prove? What if I can go to a nice medical school outside of singapore? How does those things will make me happy when I can't even enjoy myself? It's been a while since I met my friends since I partied hard since I see my clique happily going out since I went dancing without worrying about how I won't be able to study if I become too tired since I went to the gym and going around talking to people and laughing with them since I stayed up all night just to play poker and talk craps with my friends since I go on a date all night, talking craps while waiting for the sun to rise just because we have time? Now, I'm doubting will I ever be truly happy if I have to study study and study and have no social life at all ESP in medical school.

I hate myself for thinking too much.

And.... I can't handle peer pressure..

Self photography

Inspired by a very hot girl to do this. Lol. I'm not as hot as her or hot at all for that matter but I have makeup. LOL!
Self-photography is really a nice way to spice up lonely and dull nights.

Grumpy cat is grumpy.

My next hair colour :D

8bytes

8bytes (click here!)

My crazy friend started a Tshirt line and guess who's the model? Me, being his only cute friend, I'm the model! *roll eyes* LOL! Please go like the page and don't forget to check out the Tshirts. As much as I hate to say this, I think my friend did a pretty good job in designing those Tshirts.

I'll be sharing more photos soon. My favorite one would be "hardcore gangsta shit". It is a bit rude but hey, there's nothing to be serious when it comes to fashion stuffs right?

A reason to hate

"I don't know why. I just hate her."
Familiar with that kinda situation? If you're a girl, I bet u do. Plus I don't think we need a reason to love or hate someone.
Yesterday, I was criticized and frowned at a lot for saying that I hated a girl without actually knowing who she is. I hated her since 7th grade and I think I'll continue to hate her no matter what. Lol. People actually asked me why I hated that person because apparently, she's nice. But I just couldn't stand her existence. Whatever she does, I'm like "woah, look at that bitch smiling like she owns everything." I just can't help it! I know it's not really a good thing to say that I wanna slap people for no reason. Lol. But... Why do we need a reason?
I've always hated carrots. I don't know why. Orange is my favorite colour and I think carrots are so cute but I just can't bring myself to like it/eat it. I just can't appreciate its taste. Likewise, I can't like her too. Maybe I'm giving excuses to make myself feel better because hating people is a horrible thing. And what's more horrible is I already lost two very good friends just because I found out that they're her friends. I didn't even say why to them. I didn't give an explanation. I just simply cut them out of my life because I felt horrible. To this day, they're puzzled about why I stopped being friends with them. I couldn't tell them cos the reason is too.... childish. I don't intend to lose anyone anymore because of that useless piece of sh*t. Pardon me if I'm being too rude and personal lol
It's not because of jealousy or anything. She's uptight, ugly, nerdy, super traditional and boring (in my opinion). She's like most of the teachers' and parents' pet. Complete opposite of me. Maybe that's the reason. I'll never know. I just hope I found a way to deal with her because I really don't wanna lose anyone anymore over my hatred for her.
Sighhhhhh