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Friday, 24 May 2013

Visuals


This is gonna be a long one. a very long one and not in any order. I've been...... happy these days. Although I've been sick for 3 weeks and got an infection, my life's been pretty good. I can't party or go out a lot cos all my money's been spent on meds but who cares when I can meet up with my friends and spending quality time with my phat ass boy. So it's pretty good except I sometimes throw tantrums and act like a total kid n start to cry lol.

My clubbing outfit for Rebel's last party. had hell a lot of fun with my usual gang.

outfit for a date night out. met my phat ass boy and accompany him to look for his shoes but in the end, I was the one who actually shopped. Girls will always be girls.

Fitting room madness at F21. Actually loved this dress but it's too big for me.

Morning coffee with my boy before he went off to station.


middle-parting makes me look super asian and fat lol


Surprise! (not really) my purple hair which lasted for like a week. Purple fades super fast. like really really fast! Try washing ur hair more than 4 times and boom! it's gone! But I really enjoyed that colour for that one week :)




a random pic from Tulipmania date.


while colouring my hair. thanks to my phat ass boy who helped me ^^


Tulipmania date.




My boy surprised me with balloons and flowers! I felt so loved and blessed. ^^ I kinda knew he was gonna do something but didn't know what it was. I was really shocked by the effort he made to find me those lilies and balloons_ my favs things. He really knows how to make me happy again. I love you!






I cut my hair!!!!! like finally!!!!! I always wanted to do it but never had the guts but whenever someone try to play with my hair, I'll feel insecure and start pushing them away cos my hair is really frizzy and damaged. So, I did it! and everyone has good stuffs to say about it! Happy me is happy.










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ONE FINAL HAIR MAKEOVER!
Step one: Bleached!




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.SUPER BRIGHT PINK HAIR~~~~!
Honestly, I wasnt expecting this but I really love it! The only down thing is people stare! They really stare! I wear a beanie everywhere I go. I think it's less obvious when I'm wearing something on my head. The colour is quite shocking so a lot of people are not a fan of it. but whatevs, I love it.
Prepare to see a lot of camwhore pics with my hair :D I think this colour is my fav and I definitely feel different and cool with this hair which is the whole point of dyeing this kinda colour hahaha


Did I tell you that it's not entirely pink? My love for green colour doesn't stop here. I just had to add a layer of green to my hair.












Decorated my room with these balloons. Since they can't fly anymore, I had to use double-tape to secure them on the wall. Look pretty right?!
Life is pretty good except for some mood swings sometimes. I just have to learn how not to be childish and try to understand other people. Even I don't wanna talk to one and only person all the time. People need space and time alone to enjoy the times spent with their loved ones more. I really really need to think about it try to understand more. AND I need to stop bringing up the past. Past is a past for a reason, a lot of reasons in some cases. What's done is done. We can't undo it. Instead of living in the past and bringing it up again and again and feeling the after-pain of it, we need to let it go and forget it. Even if we can't, we shouldnt be talking about it and eventually, we'll forget about it. It isn't worth it to let the people from your past destroy ur present happiness right? 

I'm gna end it here. I'll be back with more pics and stuffs. 
until next time,
<3

Saturday, 4 May 2013

The Definition of Perfect

Today, I asked my date "What's your perfect girl like?"
He gave me a very long answer
She....
has to be athletic
gotta have a nice looking body
must be able to drink/smoke
has to be nice looking
the personality must be good and cool
must be girly and sweet enough to be nice to him BUT
bitchy enough not to be nice to others
must get along well with his friends
must work out
etc etc etc etc...

AND I think to myself. I AM NONE OF THOSE and that's NOT the answer I was seeking for.
The answer I wanted was "You, You're my type." Well, dumb me expecting too much from other people again. Not everyone can say the right words that I was expecting and no, I don't blame him. 

Maybe I'm really expecting too much. All I wanted was a guy who thinks he's lucky to have me. (not because I forced him or anything just because that's how much he loves me)

Whenever I was asked what kinda guys I like. I always say "he must have six packs and have tattoos." but that's not how it works.
Your heart wants what it wants NOT what your brain wants. I keep saying I want guys like Channing Tatum, or one of the one direction boys or the guy from vampire diaries but what I really look for is his sweetness, thoughtfulness and smartness. Smart and mature guys who know how to think and how to make a girl feel lucky as if she has the best bf are the sexiest guys on earth. Six packs and tattoos can't do a thing to make me feel secured and loved.
I haven't been in a lot of relationships but good enough that I know what I want in a guy.
The truth is I don't want a hot, muscular guy who only cares about how cool he looks or how many girls are falling for him. I'd rather date a fat (may be not too much) guy who would go an extra mile to make me happy, a humble guy who is happy to be with me and a sweet guy who loves me with his heart.

AND...
it's better not to expect too much from your other half.
because.. you're not perfect either. If your other half cares about you and you have the will to take care of her, then you two are perfect. If you guys interests are similar and if you can relate to each other about what you want in life, you guys are perfect for each other. You might find the "perfect" girl/boy you want, but those are just the superficial things that will keep you going only for like a month? Sincerity and love are what gonna last for a very long time. Sincerity, love and of course, making an effort to show your love to your other half whenever u have the chance.

Good luck.