There're nothing like this feeling.
It's like your mind is trying to escape from your body and you're trying so hard not to slip out of yourself.
Your loved ones are in front of you. Your one and only is sleeping in front of you. You're trying to wake him up. It would've only lasted two seconds but you thought it was forever and he wasn't going to wake up.
And there it goes..... your mind slipped. for a second, you forgot why you were there, where were you and who are you with. No one is paying you any attention and you thought you didn't exist anymore.... it's like you're dead.
you were so scared.... scared you won't see those people anymore, scared you'll be alone on the other side of the world, scared you won't see the boy again who's sleeping in front of you, suddenly thought of ur whole family whom you haven't seen in 2 years close to 3 years, and all of your unfinished business and all those wonderful moments as well as the horrible moments. As you're reflecting your whole life, you realized your mind slipped again for just 2 seconds but you felt like it's forever. You were scared to death. You wasn't ready to leave the people, the place, your family, and lastly your body.
And... you realized the last person who can probably solve everything and who had the answer to everything_ Buddha.
As you tried to pray and breathe in, breathe out....... you're gone.
It's like your mind is trying to escape from your body and you're trying so hard not to slip out of yourself.
Your loved ones are in front of you. Your one and only is sleeping in front of you. You're trying to wake him up. It would've only lasted two seconds but you thought it was forever and he wasn't going to wake up.
And there it goes..... your mind slipped. for a second, you forgot why you were there, where were you and who are you with. No one is paying you any attention and you thought you didn't exist anymore.... it's like you're dead.
you were so scared.... scared you won't see those people anymore, scared you'll be alone on the other side of the world, scared you won't see the boy again who's sleeping in front of you, suddenly thought of ur whole family whom you haven't seen in 2 years close to 3 years, and all of your unfinished business and all those wonderful moments as well as the horrible moments. As you're reflecting your whole life, you realized your mind slipped again for just 2 seconds but you felt like it's forever. You were scared to death. You wasn't ready to leave the people, the place, your family, and lastly your body.
And... you realized the last person who can probably solve everything and who had the answer to everything_ Buddha.
As you tried to pray and breathe in, breathe out....... you're gone.
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