Fight For What You Love

We fight for what we love. Even if we're at the losing end, we'll still fight until we become completely hopeless. It'll get a little harder each day especially when u're fighting alone and others are watching u fighting tooth n nail n probably making fun of you. BUT I won't walk away unless u give me a reason to. Please show me that u're worth it despite all those humiliation, tears, physical and mental pain. I just need to know that u too, are making an effort to make this last and not just watching me screw this whole thing.
I'll still keep fighting but u made it very clear I'll be the only one fighting.
And I'm not ready to walk away.... not just yet

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click on it and you'll see why the word "happy" yourself.

So in love with costal scents these days. If you don't know, it's a makeup brand and they're famous for their eyeshadow palettes. I myself got two of those. Cost me half of my rent but WORTH IT! =D

Bali Visual Diary Part 1

The end of day 1! 

Near Death

There're nothing like this feeling.
It's like your mind is trying to escape from your body and you're trying so hard not to slip out of yourself.
Your loved ones are in front of you. Your one and only is sleeping in front of you. You're trying to wake him up. It would've only lasted two seconds but you thought it was forever and he wasn't going to wake up.
And there it goes..... your mind slipped. for a second, you forgot why you were there, where were you and who are you with. No one is paying you any attention and you thought you didn't exist anymore.... it's like you're dead.
you were so scared.... scared you won't see those people anymore, scared you'll be alone on the other side of the world, scared you won't see the boy again who's sleeping in front of you, suddenly thought of ur whole family whom you haven't seen in 2 years close to 3 years, and all of your unfinished business and all those wonderful moments as well as the horrible moments. As you're reflecting your whole life, you realized your mind slipped again for just 2 seconds but you felt like it's forever. You were scared to death. You wasn't ready to leave the people, the place, your family, and lastly your body. 
And... you realized the last person who can probably solve everything and who had the answer to everything_ Buddha. 
As you tried to pray and breathe in, breathe out....... you're gone. 

Visuals

After all those hate posts and being emo for like a day, I'm back with Visuals! LOL
These a few days,
-I totally ignored my dissertation first draft. I didn't really care cos I know it's not the final one anyway.
-I'm excited about my birthday everyday. I don't wanna say out anything loud yet cos I dun wanna jinx it. I'll blog about it after everything went according to my plan.
-My phat ass boy agreed to take photos for me for my fashion posts. My fashion is not really "singapore-style" it's really a mix of everything, grungy, girly, emo-ish, hiphoppy, u name it.
-watched and finished The Vampire Diaries tgt with my phat ass boy. Turns out he's more addicted to it than me -__-
-my phat ass boy got his remote controlled helicopter. I can't wait to play it. Altho I've played like a hundred times lol
-finally got my passport extended which expired 1 year plus ago. I've been dreading it cos I didn't wanna deal with those fucked-up attitudes of burmese people at the stupid embassy.

That's about it. My life is pretty boring now. Especially when I"m planning something exciting. Had to stay low profile for a while LOL! Now, let the visuals begin!


1} Wearing my pleather jacket from H & M! Phat ass boy got it for me. I gotta say it's my favourite outwear in my wardrobe now. It's cropped and fits me really well. I'm pretty petite. So, it's really really hard to find a moto jacket that fits me like a glove! Thanks love <3

2} fooling around in ToyRus looking for a remote controlled helicopter. Phat ass boy wanted this. His inner firefighterness is exposing :P

3} my dinner. I need serious help.

4} OOTD for shopping with the capella (part of) gang! love how they always talk nonsense and still try to be adults at the same time! The dress (it's actually a top but I'm too short to wear it as a top fml) it's from H&M.

5} Look what my personal chef cook for me. it's made up of chicken, 2 layers of ham, cheese, cucumber, lettuce and BACON! Everything with bacon is love! My chef knows me the best!

6} Arena with part of Capella gang. Arena blows but the company was great!
 

7} Lazy days with le phat ass boy. We spent 2 days 2 nights watching vampire diaries. When we're hungry, we'll go out and eat and watch it again WITHOUT SHOWERING! LOL! but it's all good cos there're only two of us and no one else was invited :x

8} taken on the day my phat ass boy got his helicopter. The stupid boy didn't listen to me and flew it too high so it got hooked on a tree. We spent a good 2 hours trying to shake the tree. Since the stupid boy is too scared to climb the tree (it was more than 4 stories high), there was no way. Luckily, a passerby who turns out to be a bangali or indian man offered he'll climb for us. I was shocked and I won't deny that I thought he just wanted to make some extra cash. I was wrong! He did it out of pity for two kids who just lost their new toy (us) and didn't demand anything in return. He climbed that tree so fast like a monkey! I even thought may be he was some secret agent from India cos he was too damn fast and strong for such a skinny build. LOL! Anyway, I felt ashamed of myself for judging just by his looks/nationality. There're some genuine people out there whose humanity is just pure. So, thank you wherever you are. You're awesome!

9} OOTD for embassy. I went for comfy + boyish + a hint of girliness (explains the pink color) Don't you just love the eyeball? To me, eyeball prints are so unusual and kinda cute esp when it's printed on pink camouflage.

10} my unif shirt (sorta) Actually, unif is damn ex for just a student like me LOL it's actually unif-inspired shirt which I got from Bugis street for 15$. Can u believe that the original one is 80$+?!

11} these are hand-me-downs from my phat ass boy. Which guy in their right mind will buy this kinda bright shoes?! LOL Anyway, I'm happy he got them. Cos they're too small for him and I love bright colors. I'm such a sucker for colors :D

12} last but not least, found a selca with my purple hair. I miss it so much :( Altho my hair is boring now, I'm much more comfortable walking around in crowds. I'm just afraid that I might suddenly get crazy and do something even crazier with my hair =D

 Life, on the other hand, is pretty much the same. Sometimes, I just have to let go of some stuffs so that the better things will come along. I seriously have to work on my dissertation tho and I wanna cut my hair shorter. I hope I'll find peace soon so that I won't have to give up on him and he won't give up of me anymore. I admit that there's still a part of me that is really really scared that he might not be able to let go. I know I can't. I'm just tryin to press it down a bit by a bit. When all the feelings resurface again, will we be able to take it?

Until then :x

Journey of My Hair (part of)

People always ask me why I like to change my hair color. My answer has been always the same. I'm short. I'm not pretty. I don't have the fittest body ever. Nothing about me is attractive. When I had my first dipdye, it made me realize that I really love the feeling of walking out of my house the next day. I felt like I was a newborn. It's the most awesome feeling ever. And I started to become addicted. That's how my hair journey started. I had a blonde dipdye first and then I changed it to green. It was very new at that time in Singapore. No one had that kind of hair. I got a lot stares walking around the town and I honestly loved that feeling. And then I became addicted and I change my hair colour quite a number of times.

First, blonde and then green. After that, a horizontal rainbow.

And vertical rainbow. I got quite a lot of pics cos I really LOVED that hair. 

And then I went fully crazy....

With the help of my bf, my hair became.... 

And then, when the pink faded, I went purple.

Really loved that hair. My fav among all the colours. 

And my hair was really damaged. I had to cut it short. 

And then I had the craziest hair color of my life. 

The colour was so bright that I can't even eat peacefully in public. So I went back to my favorite color which is purple. 

Now I can't be happier with my hair and I'm still thinking what to do next maybe I'll go back to a normal color because everyone is thinking I had enough with changing hair colors and I'm about turn 20 so I think I should act like an adult or something and go back to normal hehee

X. Till next time. Look forward to my next hair colour ok? :D

55 Random Facts About Me + Visuals

1. I look very big and tall in the photos but I'm actually only 158cm. you can say I'm pretty small-sized.

2. I'm 50kg heavy and no one believes me whenever I say it :x

3. I only eat vanilla and durian ice-cream. most vanilla. you can never go wrong with the classic :x

4. I love everything that has to do with biology. my favs are anatomy and physiology. I esp love cardiovascular pathology.

5. I danced and am still dancing (just not at a dance school) for 2 years.

6. I'm a religious person. (believe it or not) I don't believe that Buddha existed (the stories and everything) but I believe in everything that was supposedly said by Buddha.

7. Green, yellow and orange are my fav colours.

8. I actually hate pink. Although my hair used to be a super bright pink, my wallet and my bag is pink.

9. I believe I can quote almost the whole "Friends", "Hannah Montana" and "How I Met Your Mother" series. I've watched all those serious over 6 times.

10. Whenever I go to sleep, I always turn on HIMYM very softly.

11. Oceanus from body shop is my fav scent in the whole world but it's discontinued =[

12. My first kiss and love was a girl. oOps

13. I love to eat apples with chunky peanut butter.

14. I can never go shopping without visiting Pull and Bear, Bershka and Forever 21.

15. I have zero direction sense.

16. I can never never never never never never roller skate. Balancing issues =\

17. I have motion sickness. I have problem with things which moves horizontally. I'm ok with vertical movements, and that's the reason why I enjoy Bungee Jumping :D

18. My one n only best friend is in US and I think I will never ever find a friend like her.

19. Balloons always make me happy. (only the ones with halogen)

20. I secretly want to be a professional assassin.

21. I prefer to own a bike rather than a car.

22. The only vegetables I like n eat are potatoes and broccoli.

23. I can't stand horror movies.

24. I never talk or still have contact with anyone who knew me before I was 9 years old. I like to believe that my life started when I turned 11.

25. I think people being gay in general are perfectly fine.

26. I only go for guys who're like much bigger than me =D

27. I drink green tea every night before I sleep.

28. You'll always find me drinking water. Before I sleep, as soon as I wake up and even in the middle of the night, I'll wake up just to drink water and turn up the volume of HIMYM.

29. I sleep with two HUGE rilakkuma.

30. My type of guy hasn't been changed since forever. tanned, tall, muscular, athletic, tattooed, big eyes, long eyelashes, defined features. BUT my current bf is the only one who fits the criteria =D

31. I love japanese fashion. not the act-cute-lolita-or-whatever-shit one. I love it when they match the prints which doesn't make sense and wear all the stupid things that no one would wear in singapore.

32. I love to work out. I wish I was a lot fitter.

33. Hawaiian pizza is the ONLY pizza I eat.

32. I LOVE japanese food! Whenever I celebrate something with people, I always suggest them to go eat jap food! My fav is salmon mentai!!!!!!!!

33. I used to love cupcakes a lot but now I rarely eat them but when I eat, it's only red velvet.

34. I've replaced cakes with fruit tarts. My fav ones are the one at fruit paradise.

35. I always fantasize my future husband will propose me on a hot air balloon. HEHEE altho I never really thought of marrying anyone ever.

36.I only like kids who can't speak yet.

37. I don't like the typical traditional burmese people.

38. I LOVE DUBSTEP!

39. I'm a hardcore clubber but now I rarely go cos of my studies.

40. Whenever I go clubbing, I don't drink alcohol. I like to think that I'm allergic to it. lol. I get high by the music.

41. I think smokers are the most selfish people in the world. I never ever dated smokers or even kissed one.

42. One day, I'll dress up as Kakashi from "naruto" and walk around singapore.

43. I love the whole YG family.

44. I can rap the whole Eminem's "The Re-up"

45. I can understand Chinese but I can't and I don't speak. A lot of people think I'm an arrogant singaporean cos whenever they speak in Chinese, I always reply in English =DDD

46. 80% of my friends outside of my school thinks I'm Malay-Chinese =S

47. About 75% of my friends are not burmese.

48. I really really really wanna work in a crime lab.

49. I don't like stitch esp the ones showing their teeth. My bf gave me one as a V-day present. I cut off its ears so that I can hug it to sleep.

50. I have a thing for butterflies, eyes, rainbows, dreamcatchers and everything in the sky. I used to have a folder which had 1000+ pictures. All the pics were galaxy stuffs.

51. I have no control over my diet and eating habits.

52. I watch cat videos everyday. I am an extreme cat lover.

53. I think all my friends (both boys and girls) act boyfriend-ish to me. May be cos I'm so small, most of my friends are older than me and I always look blur. Almost all my close friends think I have to be taken care of which works out pretty good for me TEEHEE

54. I LOVE sunrises and sunsets.

55. I want to move to New Zealand one day and live there for the rest for my life.

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now, for the visuals,

1. OOTD for G-dragon's one of a kind World Tour. Really enjoyed the show. He was quite a performer and I couldn't help but was really amazed by his performance :')

2. Study Snack :x

3. Update on my exercise routine. My current routine is 30 crunches, 30 situps, 30 leg raises, 1 min plank, 50 russian twists and I repeat it 3 times. I do squats occasionally like 3 or 4 time a week. A long way to go before I can wear crop tops with pride lol

4. Purple hair Vs Pink hair

 

5. Some photos taken in my room. Dedicated especially to my purple hair =X

x. that's all for now. I'll be back with more makeup and fashion posts!

Hair affair plus A Beach Date

If you read my previous post, you'll know my hair is super bright pink and giving everyone a headache LOL Now I'm gna spam with photos to show you how awesome it is B-) and also because I changed my hair colour aldy. From pink to purple. I was actually trying to dye green but I was too lazy to bleach my pink hair. So, I dyed it over pink and it became purple. A lot people's favourite color of mine is purple. I can make peace with it at least hahaha

1} I really really loved my eye makeup that day.

2} This is how I study LOL

3} I finished 10k run! LOL as if hahaha

4} How my phat ass boy like to play games when I'm studying. He's hugging me with his legs since his hands aren't free LOL

5} my hair got a treatment. it's smooth and straight and shitz. I don't really like straight hair though. I think it makes people look really boring. Imagine an asian with straight black hair. (am talking about average people here. I know how gorgeous those asian models can be with perfect straight black hair) I prefer hair with textures and a touch of playfulness which is basically permed hair with highlights hahah

6} OOTD to Attica. it's slowly becoming my fav club. Dressed down cos I'm there to dance. not to show off my inner sexiness *roll eyes*

7} PSI nearly 400 or over 400 hit singapore. 70% of people out there are masked. So was I

8} Beach date with the phat ass boy 

Was planning to go there for ages! and finally, we went there. We were both broke. So, we didn't get to have any fancy drinks for whatsoever BUT we had a lot of fun! For the first time in my life, I floated on water and swam for like 30 seconds without  anyone's help! =D Phat ass boy taught me and helped me for a while but then he got bored cos I was so scared and I won't stop strangling his neck lol he gave up for a while and swam by himself while I dropped my anchor at 3 feet deep and WON'T go anywhere further. LOL. and then I just did it! swam by myself for less than a minute! =D biggest achievement this year hahaha

phat ass boy buried me

so I buried him back! :D

Casually eating subway on the beach

hi, do u like my bikini? it's leopard print omg!

Mcdonald's everywhere

fat face shot showing off ma shades

anyone knows what this? =DDD

ending off with this rather cheerful shot of us. I mean me sorry hehee