So, I'm a final year student O.o

yes, u read that right.
I'm a 19yr old final yr student!!!!!!
Dunno whether to be proud or sad because
1. most of the girls at my age are still having fun at poly with little girls dramas and stuffs
2. I'm in final yr means I'm gonna have to start being serious because I'll BE WORKING IN ONE YEAR! (scariest part)
3. a ton of projects (individual ones as well as group projects) and oral exams
4. because of presentations, I might have to give up my rainbow hair. (cos attire will be also marked)
5. I already gave up partying every week :(
and I don't think I proved myself enough. The workload is crazy now. During the very first week itself, I've already got two project titles. Everything seems like new to me. Suddenly the words become so big and powerful. Tons of research papers to read and make notes of. How irritating!
I may not be the best/most hardworking student ever but my grades are almost always around A. Although I don't study much, I always tried to pay 100% attention in class. In that way, I sorta have the general idea of the topic.
Science is difficult. Now I finally understand why all the nerdiest kids in my high school chose science. because it's difficult!!! I should have chosen something like cosmetics and perfume related thingy. Regrets. but not point having it now because i'm in frigging final year! 
                                              *randomly inserts a picture of self LOL*

Yesterday was 12/12/12. I think everyone is aware of that because of all the stupid posts on twitter and facebook. lol. Two of my friends got married and one was engaged yesterday. It made me realize that I'm finally living in an adulthood. My classmates are all grownups. So are most of my friends. And what do I do? I just sit around in my room watching Hannah Montana (don't judge me), reading twilight or hunger games, drink my yakult and just lie on my bed upside down -.-
Compared to all the grownup things that people are doing like working part time, actually doing research and debating with lectures, having actual jobs or doing something they really love, i'm doing nothing at all.
Hannah Montana, Hunter x hunter and those stupid books are not gonna change my life. Silently stalking famous people and admiring them is not gonna help with anything at all! I feel bad that I have no motivation. I just study not because I want to but because I have to. I get my As or Bs and I'm happy enough. Not even thinking about my future or anything. I chose my specialization as Medical Biochemistry just because I think it's easy. I chose something related to cardiovascular pathology as my presentation and research topic just because I didn't bother to read the names of other topics. See my point? I really need motivation. I used to get it from watching CSIs, talking to my mom and stuffs but now I don't even bother anymore. I only go to school to see my friends not more than that. It's like I'm not happy with my life. I'm ok to do just about anything from sitting around orchard road listening to an old indonesian lady sings while drinking my melted icecream to going to club at 2am just because I feel like it.
I want to go against everything. I want to dye my hair a funny colour, get into a fight, beat up people, smoke weed and anything. This is THE time to go crazy but I'm doing my grownup thing_ balancing studying, having fun and working. I should have known from the time that I refused to go JC/poly and tried to go to uni directly. I actually brought myself to this.
No point doing anything or regretting now. Guess my rebellion stage was over. Everyone will go through that stage. The only thing is how bad is it and when will it stop. I'll just choose to see it as I got mature with more mature people around me. It was cool to be a rebel though. hahaa

Anddddd..... of course my pictures and outfits and stuffs... LOLOL

Got this top from F21 and LOVING it!why? the cutouts, oversize, UK flag, and tiger! everything is to die for!
No face because my face was damn bloated :D

 my clubbing outfit. yes, it's a clubbing outfit. lol. I was planning to dance like a mad girl that's why I was wearing shorts and dance shoes :D and the leather jacket is to make me look scary? hahaa

Finally wore this out. I was meeting my Russian friend hahaha We're hardcore 2NE1 and GD lovers so we get along very well!
*randomly promoting a friend* She acted in this MV. please click here and watch this video  :D the video has nothing to do with me though. I just found it well-edited and very sad.
and finally, *drum rolls*  I FINALLY GOT MY ONE OF A KIND HOODIE!!!!! After one painful month, I finally got it! It's perfect for rainy days! :D I'm in love.

That's about it for now. I will definitely try to update more with more fashion stuffs. I need a photographer seriously. I can only take photos in my room so there's no way I can post my full stupid outfits on my blog. *cries a little* and I've been buying a lot of clothes lately. I can't wait to make a big deal out of what I wear everyday! LOLOL That's how much I love and how much I'm obsessed with myself! :D
Oh and, I just sent my portfolio (not photography, modelling) to two blogshops. I don't think they'll want me because my face is not typical blogshop model face LOL but I sent them anyway because I wanna test my luck and I have no idea what is the expected rates. I googled but nothing came up. So I just wrote 30$ per hr :D
I really hope I survive 21/12/12 LOL