Christmas and feelings

I'm honestly not looking forward to Christmas and New year this year. Probably because it just reminds me that I'm alone and by alone, I don't mean being single. I meant I'm not with my family. So yeahhhh :(
I've been working a lot lately to get some unwanted stuffs out of my mind. Planning on photoshoots I want to do so badly. Thanks to stupid rain, all my plans are ruined.

Pre-diabetic thing is really starting to annoy me. In case u don't know, I'm diagnosed with pre diabetes. It's not diabetes yet but eventually, it'll turn to diabetes. It's going to be tough but I'm prepared to give it my best shot to survive as long as possible :)
Now, the problem is I have to document every single meal and have to exercise at least 4 days a week. There's a set of exercises I should follow but I was born with defects_ I have tachycardia. So, I can't do any vigorous exercises. I can't run or jog. So, I only dance like 2days a week which is apparently not enough. My doctor suggested getting a personal trainer but I'm too lazy :( The meal thing is also a problem. I had to cut down on everything. I have a super sweet tooth but now even when I buy my fav koi ice-cream milk tea, I have to choose 50% sugar instead of 100%. No smoking and no drinking is fine because I strongly detest cigarettes and alcohol. I already knew it's not gna be an easy battle but now laziness is winning.
the most exciting and fun thing that happened during this month is I WENT TO RWS AQUARIUM! It's the newly opened one in singapore and it's supposedly the biggest in the whole world! It was fun with all my classmates who I love. We really enjoyed our time there. I was hoping to see big fat sharks but only saw the small ones. and I discovered my love for starfish or seastars. They're so cute!!!! and their life cycle is interesting! Do u know that they reproduce by splitting in half? I bet u didn't! and the friendly staffs there let me touch a starfish omg! it's soft and hard at the same time. kinda weird but I love it!

 I think this looks like a painting. I can't help but captured it until I get the best shot. This is probably not the best but i think it look kinda artistic? hahaa

 My friends kept saying they wanna eat all those fish hahahahaa I think they're so cute and I don't eat fish anyway.

It was really fun and we spent the whole day there, in sentosa! Best place for a mini getaway from crowded small singapore flooded with people who're rushing to their fav stores to shop or the best restaurants. the only bad thing is everything in sentosa is expensive.

and for my recent loots,
I got.....

this topshop bohochic looking dress from a warehouse sale. I bought it from a blogger/model Eunice Annabel. She's super gorgeous just like in her photos. Looks great in every angle! Anyway, that dress is brand new and it's only 20$! :O such a steal! as soon as i saw the butterfly print, I knew I had to get it haha

I also got these two pullovers from styleraiders which is a facebook page. I got all my hairdyes from there also. Really reliable and efficient in replying emails. I ranked them A! haha
You might think I'm crazy when I say I got those because I was inspired by Gdragon and CL (two of my fav artists in the whole world) GD was wearing a black one. I got red to show my X'mas spirit :D
2nd one makes me look fat. :D it's Jeremy Scotts inspired. I wanted the real one but it's 200$+ so I didn't wanna spend so much on a shirt. It's my parents' money after all T_T

and I also got this crochet dress from thewhatisdrop.com. I doubt if I'll ever purchase anything from them again. They take 2 days to reply each mail and I ordered two but they only put one in the first mail. It took another 6 or 7 days to receive my 2nd order which I already paid for 2 weeks ago. Really inefficient service. "C"!

This is ONLY christmas present that the-foreveralone me received this year. I'm really thankful tho! better than nothing right?
I really wanted to go out with someone and do nothing but just walk around, talk, eat or watch movie and drink hot choco while getting all cozy up on Christmas. I thought I was gna be alone but I found a friend who agreed to go out with me! yay! We watched Jack Reacher (or rather tricked into watching it cos I wanted to watch CZ12) with a guy friend. It was my first time meeting him outside club! hahaa but it was kinda nice :) I felt kinda sorry for him cos it was a bit awkward and I didn't really know what to talk about. He looked really bored lol hope we can go out again soon! It's always good to have new friends right? Especially nice to have guy friends cos at least they don't greet u with "hey u look fatter" lol
wore this for dinner but I found it too girly. So I changed into something edgy n scary lol

 update on my hair condition: the ends are officially dead. I had to tie or add some treatments to my hair every time I go sleep. It now it'll become super frizzy like that! I had to curl it before I went out. So time-consuming!

 ending this with my faces (as usual) I love myself too much I can't deny it hahaha

until next time....